Ahhmazing relationships

One particular relationship makes me go off in my head...unfortunately seems like thats the only relationship that i want & i wonder WHY?...he's no great guns or a tom cruise, more so at times i feel what the hell? why in the entire world did i fall in love with a willy nut,not even "hazel"....hmmm and may be because i want to feel like a martyr...but what i learnt from this dud dud relationship is that....life is more than just getting tom cruise...or even a macho man....this timid small ones fine for me...its "LOVE" you see. More over i do enjoy the animosity- love relationship....and thats when i start to believe in murphys law...which says "anything that can go wrong will go wrong"...other wise i am positively positive about every thing else in life.....one of murphys love laws also states..."The qualities that most attract a woman to a man are usually the same ones she can't stand years later", Soooo true i am trying to search for the same qualities which have "way" disappeard...frantically trying to search for them...all in vain . Ehhhh! now im getting goose bumps wondering have i lost it or did he get hijacked by some alien abuduction team & transformed my prince in to a bull frog....what ever at the end when i pinch myself i know its still real & live with the bull frog.